Post by Kathy Vavrick-O'Brien on Dec 31, 2008 21:50:17 GMT -5
Final Words
Well I wasn't completely surprised to find myself voted off. It had occurred to me that it would make more sense of the two of us to vote for me rather than Rudy. I am a much bigger threat in challenges whereas Rudy probably would not even do them. It would even make sense to keep Rudy for the final two. Whoever he was up against would probably win. My fears came true when the 4th vote came up for me. I knew without a doubt the 5th & final vote would be for me. The sad thing is if Gary, Rudy, & I had all stayed together in our alliance and voted Rob M instead of Gary & Rudy going against one another this would not have happened. Instead our votes went 3 ways giving two other players the opportunity to take control of the votes. I believe Rudy & Gary voted each other, I voted Rob M, and Robb & Rob M voted for me.
My primary goal for this game was to get Rudy, Gary, and myself to the final 3. Even though I am no longer in the running I really do hope to see both of them make it past this next round and on to the final 3. I don’t really see either of them taking the other to the final 2 unless Gary does so for a sure win.
I regret the way I’ve played this game. My apologies go out to the following:
Donna: I got all caught up in winning that posting challenge and pleasing certain people who wanted you voted out. I was not in danger of being voted out that round and basically single-handedly caused your vote out. I had enjoyed talking to you when we were tribemates at the start of the game and getting to know you a little better.
Matty: No apologies. I barely knew you and had no obligation to you.
Eliza: Gary was our connection although we had talked a few times about the game. The two of us did not have an alliance but our tribe had been working together. When I went along with the decision to vote you out I not only went against the trust you had in me, but also against Gary, and the rest of the tribe.
Dan K: I believe you could have stayed longer in the game if Eliza had not been voted off. Our tribe probably would have protected you for a few rounds into the game.
Tina: We had really gotten to know one another a lot better this game and I enjoyed working with you and getting to know you better. The two of us didn’t have an alliance together but Rudy & I had agreed to work with Keith and the rest of our original tribe. I know it came as a great shock and betrayal when you were voted off.
Keith: You are definitely my biggest regret in the game. When you offered Rudy and I that final 3 deal I knew at the time there was no way I was going to be able to honor this deal. You trusted me and I basically betrayed that trust. Whether I said a direct lie or let you believe what you wanted to believe it was still wrong. Thanks for returning my knife to me.
In my defense a lot of what I did was to protect my two main alliances and to go along with them in the voting decisions. If I had it to do over I would have picked one side and one side only instead of all the switching back and forth in the vote. I would have also stood up to those voting decisions that went against what I felt was right.
For those remaining in the game I have a few words:
Rudy: You were my main alliance and I had intended to honor our final 2 deal. There were times I was very frustrated with you and probably shouldn’t have given in so easily to voting out certain people. Nonetheless I really did enjoy getting to know you better and hopefully we can play in more games together. I’m considering playing your Survivor Americas game. I would love to see you make final two and yes you will receive my vote to win the game. Good luck!
Gary: You were only 2nd to Rudy. If I had not already made a final 2 deal with Rudy I would have made it with you. It was always great chatting with you whether it was strategy or about real life stuff. You have played a great game both socially and in challenges. I protected you as best I could in the game and hope to see you make it to final 2. You have my vote unless you are up against Rudy. I believe if you make it you will win the game. Good luck!
Robb: If you voted me out as I suspect I have no hard feelings. We helped one another out in that last challenge. I could have taken the math answer and not shared answers with you and won immunity. But I also feel I owe you for voting against our tribe in the first place and even agreeing to vote you out this round.
Rob M: Again I have no hard feelings if you indeed did vote me out. I enjoyed our chats together and getting to know you a little better in the game. I did a throw-away vote to you but I would have also voted you out for real if Gary & Rudy could have agreed to work together instead of against one another. So you are one more person I owe an apology.
To Dennis and Ray: I was very reluctant to play this game and turned you down a few times. I had got burned out by a few games and had quit playing for seven months. I had made the decision not to play anymore. But you were persistent and I’m glad I gave in. It was so much fun playing again. I always looked forward to getting home or getting up in the morning and checking things out in the game. Even though I am not proud of some of the decisions I made I did put my whole heart into the game and did my best at the challenges and keeping my confessionals up-to-date. Of course now I am hooked and will be looking for another game to play. It’s like an obsession with me. Hopefully I will play the next game differently and in such a way I am more comfortable with and not having everyone in the game think of me as a villainess. Thanks again for a great game and inviting me to play. I had a blast!
